Abstract Art layers: Awesome in the Morning
Do You Feel Guilty When You Start To Crumble Throughout the Day?
Awesome in the Morning, 2024.
Mixed Media on Canvas - 8” x 8” x 1.5”
Art that Begins
with Personal COntext
Awesome in the Morning tells the story of the guilt so many of us have late at night once the noise settles down and we are left with our decisions for the day. Every morning starts so slowly and full of hope. As we interact throughout the day, our decisions become less patient and kind. I think so many adults look back on raising our voices and wish we could have been softer. We wish we could have stayed more patient.
The gift is that when we get upset, it gives the people we love permission to be upset with us as well. It creates a space that says it’s OK to express yourself and I will still love you after you show me.
So Awesome in the Morning is not just about the finished piece. It is also about all the layers and stages that we go through at the end of the day and in creating artwork. It is about all the times I worked on it and walked away. The times I decided I didn’t like what I had done and changed it all around the next day. It’s an example of the new beginnings we give ourselves in the morning. It is about all the times we change our minds at night and the guilt and disappointment we feel in ourselves. It is a reminder that in the morning, we can get back up and try it all again because there will be a tomorrow.
Early Versions of Awake in the Morning
Art Inspired Writing
Awesome in the Morning
I start feeling frustrated.
I feel ignored.
I express frustration and people run away.
I feel guarded and people come back.
I stay distant.
I feel numb.
They want more and I say I have nothing left to give.
I worry they won’t feel comfortable expressing themselves because they will try to protect me.
I feel like I am pushing them away.
They are recovered but I am not.
I feel guilty because maybe I missed a chance.
I regret it.
I hate myself for doing it.
I tell myself I won’t let myself go this far next time.
I want to disappear.
I wake up at 4 and distract myself with TV.
I will try to be awesome in the morning.